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so I got down to about 163 and then gained about four pounds and my B cup bras stopped fitting and so I took a pregnancy test and it was positive! I am almost 2 1/2 months pregnant and I am happy. kinda nervous about gaining the weight again but hopefully since I have changed my lifestyle I can get the weight off after the baby. I am still teaching zumba and working out not running but trying to walk, a little nervous since I miscarried last year and trying to cut out HIGH high impact workouts. but i am weighing in at 168 and 169 so hopefully I can control my weight and put it on at a good rate and not all at once. staying away from sweets as much as I can and have lost ALL appetite for meat lol. but I wanted to let everyone know hopefully I can get on here and still keep you guys motivated! I know you all will do great so keep up the hard work! thank you for everything that you have done for me and I wish all nothing but the best hope to talk to you soon! TAKE CARE!

Got to my mini goal and I am so happy!!! I can’t believe I am the smallest I have been in almost 3 years now!!!  I have such a great feeling and since I have stopped caring about my weight I have lost so much more! I enjoy working out!! I am tickled pink that I am no longer the person I used to be… I find that I am more open to meet people and a lot more confident in myself than I was when I weighed 240lbs.  I am amazed what Zumba has done for me, it really changed my life if it weren’t for me getting certified I don’t know if I would be as active as I am today, and be blessed with all the magnificent people I have met and/or going to meet! Zumba is my chord of life besides GOD. I can express myself through the dance fitness and still have a great time! If there is a zumba  class near you I think you should really take one I LOVE IT… and unfortunately I didn’t have a class here lol but I am doing things I NEVER thought I would do… I am playing soccer with my step son, crawling through the playground chasing my little girl and running just for the peace of mind and the thoughts I can take out without anyone else. I want to thank you all for being here by my side and helping me push through everything! You all are amazing friends and I know you all can reach your goal and I hope many blessings come your way! Have a great DAY!

HUGS****

Okay, so lately I have had a lot of people ask me this question “Are you eating?” or they rephrase it “that is a lot of weight, what are you doing starving yourself?”

Well the answer to that is NO!!! Not saying that anyone on here has done it just a lot of ppl I meet or that come to Zumba! Sometimes I just want to be like I EAT 5 TIMES A DAY!!!!! but is it so hard to believe that I lost the weight without starving myself… (I obviously LOVE food) ok so some of you may or may not know that at the end of December early January I was weighing at probably about 240 so I tried to eat better I did for a while and lost some weight to about 228-230 and stopped trying then I decided to go at it again at the end of Feb. when I joined here my starting weight was 220lbs. so since January I have lost about 59lbs! again I didn’t starve myself or anything crazy I just finally made a lifestyle change and started working out! No cokes, no candy, changed to whole wheats and multi grains and organic fruits and veggies, steriod free meat and TONS of water! Sometimes when I talk to ppl on the street they look at me like I have done drugs or been binging or something crazy and that is when I tell them that I got off my BIG BOOTY and started kicking my butt and making changes! I think I have worked very hard to get where I am today and I know that I have not lost weight the wrong way and I know that I have lost it “very fast” as people want to tell me and that I will gain it all right back… but the thing is I am not ever planning on going back to the way my life was, I don’t want to eat so much that I can’t do anything afterwards, or be so big that I get out of breath chasing my kids! So there will be no return to eating bad foods. I love the way eating right and being active has made me feel! so now that I have this off my chest! I feel a lot better lol!

*to my buddies* I hope your weekend has been lots of fun and I hope that this coming week brings success and happiness your way! Take care and I hope to talk to you all soon!

Thank you for all the comments and notes! much appreciated! I just wanted to thank you all and I hope you are doing well! I have been extremely swamped and I have sevral upcoming events so I have been trying to get ahead on a few things! I hope your week is coming along great ! Again thank you all!

I am not sure where to start b/c I though b.s. is suppose to be about having buddies and I have them but I don’t ever hear from ANY of them unless I send them something first, no one hardly comments on blogs… so I have pretty much been doing all this alone and it kinda sucks that I have all these buddies on my list and none of them ever even send me a message just to see how I am! When I get on here it is just to enter my new weights and go through and leave some comments and then off again! Just kinda bothered that I am suppose to be getting support and have buddies but really I don’t! I hope anyone that reads this has a great weekend! Take care everyone!

before     From the side

here is one before and the after since something wouldn’t let anyone look!! sorry you guys

me and my mother in law          From the side

Hey Everyone! I hope you all had a great 4th of July!!! here is a few pics that I took… lol… they are recent but unfortunately aunt dot is here to visit but the bloat will be down in about a week and hopefully I can put up a few new pics! Let me know what ya think! my before pictures are on another blog!!! Love you guys!

so today is my real anniversary… yesterday we were just going to go out alone but we have made up and are going out tonight…. I hate to say that I was so upset yesterday that that was the first time I had ate emotionally since february… I have gained like 6 pounds in 2 days but I know that I can get it back off… I don’t feel bad for doing it but, it really woke me up and now I see I don’t want to do that and it doesn’t make me happy…  so in a way I am glad I did it because now I know how much I hate just stuffing my face all day and how those foods really make me feel when I eat emotionally.,…EVEN WORSE!! so I will probably go for a run this afternoon when we get home depending on what time it is or I migt just run in the morning and get back on the horse! I want to get back to 189 before I post my pics b/c I am SUPER bloated hahaha.. not too funny but my stomach is swollen so maybe sometime this week!! thank you all for being so supportive and loving!! I hope you have a GREAT sunday!

all I wanted was one day for us to be able to just do whatever with each other and he justs wants to run off and play golf with his friends… I don’t get it he knows how important this is to me and I feel like he could care less….. I feel like I deserve the extra attention right now! I don’t have Miley and I am missing her like crazy I just wish I had her to hold right now….. My hubby and I are celebrating our anniversary a day early and I got upset that he decided to go play golf with his friends (normally I would be ok with this) but today was suppose to be our day of alone time together we never get to spend time alone… either he is always working or I am working or have Miley out doing something!!! I mean what the hell…. ONE DAY!!!! that is all I wanted is just to have all of his attention for ONE friggin day….. but he got mad and well you can imagine one thing lead to another and he told me “you know what, FUCK YOU.. I am not coming home.” we were suppose to go out for dinner but I think that is a no go now…. I don’t know what to do…… I am too upset and crying to go workout and if I tried I think I might workout til I got hurt.

Nothing goes my way when it comes to our relationship I am always put 4th or 5th on his list… I deserve time too!!! I take care of the kids (NEVER ask him to do anything) I clean the house, cook, do his laundry and I put him ahead of myself and I cannot even get the same love returned.

I thought I was going to put up new pics but I don’t think I am going anywhere just sitting at home alone….. sorry you guys Have a great saturday

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just click on the titles its the only way I could get them up the other way they were HUGE and could not even see the picture…..

Hey everyone!!! these are my before pictures at about 215-220lbs… when I started at the begining of feb. I weighed 235!!! I will post some new pictures tomorrow… Hubby is getting me a new camera for our anniversary since ours broke But I should definately have pictures on very very soon!!!